Returning to Work After Maternity Leave

Returning to work after maternity leave isn’t easy! Actually, it’s challenging because of the emotional toll and guilt moms feel. I wanted to share my experience in case there are other moms out there struggling.

I’ve officially been back to work for 2 months. I can’t believe how quickly it went! Honestly, I was dreading going back to work, not because I hated my job, but because I was so sad to leave her, and I felt so guilty. You see, when I had my firstborn, I was able to stay home for 2 years before I went back to work. I got to see every single new thing she did. I saw her first giggle, the first time she rolled over and heard her first word. Literally, every single thing she did I was there for. This time I had to go back to work. I felt so guilty for not being able to give her two years at home that I had given my firstborn. I was worried I wouldn’t have the same bond I had with my first, since I wouldn’t get to spend every minute of every day with her. I was devastated that I would probably miss out on something. No one could care for her the way I do. I had all the thoughts and was a sobbing mess the weeks leading up to my first day back.

The dreaded first day came and I was sure I was coming home to a walking talking baby who had grown up in a day. Thankfully to my surprise, it was still my tiny baby when I got home. Haha, When I walked in the door she lit up and was so happy to see me. I can happily report that we have just as strong a bond as my first.

Making the transition back will be challenging but there are things you can do to make this transition easier. Something that helped me is I got a new outfit that I felt unstoppable in! Make yourself feel good on your first day. Lay everything out so you aren't rushing around trying to get you and your baby ready. It will change your whole attitude. Iron your clothes, pack the diaper bag, make your lunch, etc. Do everything you can to make sure your morning is smooth sailing.

I know right now it seems like you will always feel sad and always feel guilty, but it gets better with time. You are not alone! There are so many other moms facing the same feelings and situations. Find some mom friends who can relate. Whether that’s at work or online. I love my Instagram mom friends! If you are looking for a community, come join us @kara_sinclair we are also building a community here on the blog! Thankfully at my job there are lots of new moms. We, new moms, need each other to whine about how much we miss our babies! Seriously, it helps!

We have finally fallen into a routine. I still get those sweet cuddles. I saw her roll over for the first time. She is always so excited to see me. All the fears I had seemed so small now, but I couldn’t see that two months ago.

I’m sure it seems easier said than done, but you can do this. Your baby will be ok and so will you. I still have days where I feel guilty, but I also know by working she is well cared for and has everything she needs. You can do this mama! Go crush your first day!